The last evening before her gender reassignment surgery: Caroline believes she has finally arrived on the side of happiness. As the hospital settles down for the night, she says goodbye to her old self and feels happy for the first time in her life. Weeks later, her father is dying. Caroline looks paralyzed from her apartment building and talks about the first abuse on Christmas Eve in her childhood. She soon realizes that without dealing with her trauma, there is no future. With the help of a therapist, Caroline returns to her past - with an uncertain outcome.